Group therapy

I’m trying to look up some non-faith based support groups to go to (my counselor recommended it because she thinks what she has to offer is not enough for what I’m going through).

The reason I bring this up again is because I just need to get it out some how. I saw my ‘predator’ recently. I had to look him in the eye and say ‘Happy Thanksgiving’ when really in my head, I’m screaming you’re the reason I dropped out of school from depression! you’re the reason I can’t get intimate with someone without having flashbacks!

And I’m just so confused on why I feel so disgusted with myself when I know I’m not alone. Fuck, there are people that’s been through so much worse than me. And yet, suicidal thoughts come to me like I’m not worth moving on. 

Haha Welp. Been a little been since I last posted

Truth be told though, the topic of sex and vulnerability has been really hard for me lately. I’ve started skipping psychology and I stopped reading the book because I was learning more and more about myself which freaked me out. I may just turn this into some sort of virgin-sex diary and turn to tumblr if there comes a day (again) where my friends are unavailable. I’m making an appointment with the counselor on Tuesday.  I have to. Lately I’m feeling like one fucked up piece of shit. Time to move past that ‘cause it’s already getting old. 

James Houston, maker of “Let’s Talk About Sex,” interviewed groups of teenagers in America and in the Netherlands. "What would you think of a girl that carries around a condom with her?"America’s response: whore, promiscuous, slut, unclean, etc.Netherlands’ response: nothing."What if a boy was carrying a condom around with him?"America: He’s a player and he’s just trying to get some. Don’t talk to him.Netherlands: If he didn’t have a condom, don’t talk to him. See ya. And look at the results. http://www.letstalkaboutsexthefilm.com/index.html  

James Houston, maker of “Let’s Talk About Sex,” interviewed groups of teenagers in America and in the Netherlands.

"What would you think of a girl that carries around a condom with her?"
America’s response: whore, promiscuous, slut, unclean, etc.
Netherlands’ response: nothing.

"What if a boy was carrying a condom around with him?"
America: He’s a player and he’s just trying to get some. Don’t talk to him.
Netherlands: If he didn’t have a condom, don’t talk to him. See ya. 

And look at the results. 
http://www.letstalkaboutsexthefilm.com/index.html  

I am Jack’s dirty old car rag

Fight Club was on this morning and I watched it in a horrible state of mind.

Yes, we teach the boys have a ‘God-stick’ and girls have a ‘shame cave.’
The Daily Show with Jon Stewart
Ohhh mom... <3
Mom: Next Mothers day, I want Whitney Houston's greatest hits CD.
Me: I already gave that do you mom. I gave it to you for your birthday.
Mom: Oh really? WHERE?
And now I'm sure our neighbors can hear "I Wanna Dance With Somebody" from our house.

amaratai:

You’ve honoured me this evening to a degree I feel I don’t yet deserve. When I read about the work of my fellow honourees, I felt humbled and certain that among us, I am the one with much to prove. I believe I’ve received this award not so much because of what I’ve done, but because of the way I was born and raised. I was born the younger sister of a gay man, my older brother Mike, and the daughter of parents who were both empathetic to and loving of the LGBT community. In my household, being gay was and is - no big deal. When my brother came out we hugged him, said we loved him, and that was that. When he brought home his first boyfriend …when he brought his first boyfriend, now husband home for a couple of weeks one Christmas, my father’s only comment to my mother was: “Please, try not to mix up our underwear.” We had no idea that I would become recognizable because of my work and that we would become publicly labeled as having an “alternative family lifestyle”. Just for the record, we don’t feel that there is actually anything alternative about our family values. So for semantic reasons only, it’s with some hesitation that I accept the HRCLI award. I don’t consider myself just an ally to the LGBT community, I consider myself your family; and so, I’m doing, what we should all do, with our families. I’m loving you, I support you, I completely accept you as you are as I hope you do me, and if anyone, ever, tries to hurt you - I’m gonna give them hell!There are people who’ve said that I’m being brave for being openly supportive of gay marriage, gay adoption ..basically of gay rights, but with all due respect, I humbly dissent. I’m not being brave, I’m being a decent human being, and I don’t think I should receive an award for that, or for merely stating what I believe to be true; that love, is a human experience, not a political statement, however, I acknowledge that sadly we live in a world where not everybody feels the same. My family and I will help the good fight continue until that long awaited moment arrives. When our rights are equal, and when the political limits on love have been smashed. This award does not represent in anyway the pinnacle of my relationship with the LGBT community, rather, it is a triumphant roar to announce that we are just beginning our fight together. In closing, to paraphrase Enis Del Mar, who was unforgettably embodied by the late, the great,  Heath Ledger: I swear HRC, I swear. I have not yet done enough to deserve this award, but don’t worry, the best is yet to come.

I loved her before, but this totally enhances that by a billion. This woman is amazing!! Sitting here crying right now after sitting through this speech to write it down for all of you guys. Incredible!

Listen to Anne’s speech here (or here if the first link stops working), and please be sure to reblog and place a white ribbon (for marriage equality) on your blogs, please. :-) Let’s spread this around!

Because everyone should have the right to tie the knot!

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Please show your support for marriage equality and put a ‘White Knot’ somewhere on your Tumblr page. 

Reblog and pass this on to as many as you can. :-) and be sure to visit WhiteKnot.ORG for more information on the White Knot Campaign.

nowyoukno:

Valentine’s Day Fact #13
Today, NowYouKno is posting 14 Love, Dating, and Relationship facts in honor of Valentine’s day! See more here.

nowyoukno:

Valentine’s Day Fact #13

Today, NowYouKno is posting 14 Love, Dating, and Relationship facts in honor of Valentine’s day! See more here.

"Put the gun to my head and paint walls with my brains"

Is what I would say if I hated Valentine’s Day and watched Fight Club all day.

Instead, I’m indifferent and I like to watch Fight Club all night (there’s school during the day).